Thank you everyone who sent me support messages and understood my intentions. I didn’t want to respond to this subject again, but a good friend of mine thought it’d be better if I made another post to explain myself better. I hate the thought that a stupid sarcastic comment I made hurt people because of someone else’s wrong interpretation of my comments.
I made those comments to racyue because she knows how much I hate mob doujins and I complain a lot about these kind of doujinshi to anyone who knows me (and makoharu), and therefore I knew she would understand what I was talking about. We were all bitter and sad about the writing of this season, and even though I wanted Haru to go pro all along, I was upset about the very sudden switch in his mentality and my comment referred to the writing of his character and not to actual rape.
It is unfortunate I made that stupid comment with both ill timing, not knowing of other dramas about controversial issues as I have not been visiting tumblr regularly for a while except for quick posts, and also because I have been advised not to watch the episode and talked about it only based on what my friends were telling me about it. I was honestly with the mindset that Haru’s tears were sad, thinking of a future without his friends, and I have not not known or seen the screencap until later, so yes, looking at it now it makes me cringe because I’d never had said that if I had seen the screencap and knew what tears they were talking about. My comment was sarcastic because I was upset that not only it was a very sudden switch at the penultimate episode instead of developing it through the season, but also because I was concerned he was going to Australia and leave his friends behind and felt like his bonds with Iwatobi were cast away and meant nothing. This is what I felt when I made that unfortunate comment.
So again, I apologize about making that sarcastic comment. I made it to my friends knowing they understand what I mean. I did not mean to make fun of rape and wasn’t talking about rape and I can’t stand the thought people would think I support something I don’t or take me for a person that would make light of rape. I will definitely mind my words better even when I’m being emotional. It was never my intention to hurt or offend anyone, I was just venting and didn’t think other people would be checking my conversations and misunderstand me.
I’m not a hateful person and I’m not gonna respond to things people have said about me. I’m glad some people understood me and I’m even more glad that my friends understood or at least asked me first before jumping to conclusions. I hope those of you who were offended will understand better the context of my words and accept my apology.
Even though I disliked the season and the writing and that’s why I kept off tumblr for the most part, the end result of the final episode was exactly what I wanted and I’m satisfied with the conclusion, although I still would not buy the dvds.
It is a good time for me to leave the fandom and move on. I only joined tumblr to fangirl makoharu and share the love to begin with, I didn’t think I would have thousands of followers and I never wanted or intended to get dragged into drama and I’m sorry in the end it happened that way.
Anyway, I will always ship makoharu and hope everyone will continue to enjoy this beautiful ship even now that the series has ended.
Thank you for reading and I’m sorry again.